Dear Mum,

I don’t need you any more.

I don’t think I’ll ever stop wanting you however and I know I need to learn to live with that.

I’m here in the world without you now and it feels so weird. Some days I forget you’ve gone and will set a place at the dinner table for you. Thoughts pop into my head and I reach for the phone to run them by you but you’re not here to answer my call.

Frankie needs me Mum, she really does.
I’m guiding her in the best way I can. I’m mirroring your love and unconditional commitment so that one day she won’t need me too.

I hope she always wants me though Mum, like I want you.

She’ll learn to carry me with her, won’t she Mum, like I do you?

I left home when I was 21 but I always came back didn’t I Mum? I brought you to live with me for the final year of your life so we could be together.

You needed me then didn’t you Mum?

I had the strength to take care of you because you have always taken care of me.

You made me strong, you made me brave enough to live without you.

Do you think Frankie will do the same?

Will I have given her enough strength and belief in herself to not need me any more too one day?

I hope so.

Love as Always,

Queen x
20/05/2021