Morning Mum,

‘Morning Love, are you feeling any better?’

I’m feeling more myself but we’re all under the weather, Jen’s been off work this week and has had to take to her bed and now Frankie’s got Covid. I’m run down physically and I think when a wave of grief comes crashing, everything becomes magnified.

When you came back through my visitation dream, I felt wonderful and on such a high but then during the days that followed I felt as though I’d lost you all over again.

‘Oh, Love, I’m sorry, is there anything I can do?’

I don’t think there is Mum, not this time, I’m having to just go through all the emotions and rest when I can.

‘How’s Jen?’

You know Jen, she’s so caring and accommodating, she’s been amazing over the past year. On Monday, despite being poorly herself, she said ‘What can I do to help?  What can I get you?’

‘I just want my Mum.’ Came my reply and she just held me like I was five again while I sobbed uncontrollably.

Frankie gets me tissues and wipes my tears, this generates even more tears, her emotional intelligence is off the scale.

‘Listen to me Love, you’ve had a lot going on and I know you’ve still got some big changes on the horizon, these changes will bring new hope and opportunity.  Keep going Queen, these waves of grief that come crashing and knock you for six will soon settle into more manageable ripples. Things will get easier, I promise.’

Thank you Mum, I just miss you so much.

‘I know you do my Love but I’m right here, trust me.’

I know you are.

Love as always 

Queen x

19/01/2022